Things needs to get better. The person I am now, isn’t who I thought id be around this time of year. Not changing my morals, my loyalties, personality or even the way i think. Sleazy in a way, Selfish in another. Ive become such a mole rat. A homebody. I have lost sight of my passion’s and my dream’s. All because I’ve been focusing all my energy on one particular thing. I’ve been focusing so hard on that, to make sure nothing goes wrong, that maybe this is where the problem lies. within myself and my insecurities.
I’ve changed a lot. And I see that now. The person i am now Isn’t who i was when i first met him. I was appealing then, but now i’ve become to relaxed and comfortable with the situation. Things need to change. I feel horrible in myself when my own boyfriend doesnt want me to go to clubs with him. I feel horrible in myself how happy i see him when he goes without me. When we go together he never is that happy. So that is like a stab wound. Im lost in more ways than ever these days. I used to be so smart in all the decisions i made.
Where did Brandon go? And what happened?